Another day....

So he is being really nice. Not sure why, not sure i care. It is really weird though. I stay in the bedroom after the girls go to bed and he stays downstairs. It seems like he wants me to act like nothing is going on which i do with the girls around. I cant always walk around with the smile and chipperness. He sends me texts telling me to have a good day like he cares if I actually have a good day. If he does care if I have a good day then why the hell is he doing this? He is always telling me to sit and relax, and I need to but I don't want to relax then have him throw i in my face later to say I am lazy and a horrible mother. I am watching my back. I know how his family is and I dont put it past them to use whatever they can to make me be the bad person. I am watching every step I make around them. My kids are all I have. I will fight for them no matter what.
I have another Dr. appt Wed. It is for my Blood pressure and to check my blood sugar. I dont want him to go to anymore appts with me. Sometimes i think I dont even want him the delivery room but then I rethink it and realize i might actually need him in there. then I get stubborn and tell myself I dont need him or anyone else. I guess we will see what happens and how I m feeling at the time